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General topics / Re: "moving away from Bhagavan" problem
« on: September 30, 2011, 12:41:52 PM »
on one day, after several strong spiritual awakenings and subsequent intense inner pain, I felt the need for guidance in the physical form.

the same day bhagawan appeared in my mind and told me its alright, that I will meet some gurus, and he will take care that they are not fake ones, and after some time I will meet my karmic guru, I should not think that bhagawan is different from all of them.

this is what happened the next couple of years

its a matter of karma and karmic seeds in the mind, I had several clear dreams of my teacher before meeting him, leading me all the way into the himalayas were I finally met him.
I dreamed about the place and were he lives and it was exactly the same place like in my dreams, I just saw some pictures but not of the place were he lived, and also not from his small room...still I dreamed about it exactly the same way.

bhagawan is omniscient and guiding us on levels that we cannot comprehend with our small minds

all duality is only the mind

still I agree one should not mix teachings, views and practices according to ones own taste. that might be dangerous.

so vedanta is a complete path, buddhism is a complete path. no need to take a little buddhism and a little hinduism, or jump back and forth. meeting this guru that guru this teachings that teaching.

but I do feel that study of both to understand what one is doing and attempting to do is ok, as long as the information does not confuse the sadhaka.

thats what I think about it, although I have no authority on these matters.

may we all attain the fruit in this life

General topics / Re: Contemplative Zen Story
« on: September 28, 2011, 05:46:11 PM »
thats a good story :)

the buddha in fact did some very interesting things.

there is a sutra in the pali canon were he teaches two brahmins how to attain brahma. he is never using the word an-atman at all.

in all his teachings he never said brahma is not existing, he just says he has no seperate identity--he is bliss-emptiness like anything else

but when talking with the two brahmins he never mentioned these things he guided them like there is god and the soul as objects that one can attain.

in other cases he pointed to the nature of reality directly liberating his listeners on the spot, I dont say buddhists know what is the nature of reality more then the vedic teachings, in fact buddha wouldnt be possible without the vedic teachings, this is obvious.

If you say "Self" to talk about the nature of reality or if you refer to it by another means, like showing that there is no seperate self or essence in any thing, that all is perfectly interconnected and empty of self nature.

again you might missunderstand "empty of self nature" this comes because most people dont study and practice buddhism sufficiently to really udnerstand the concept of emptiness, as this is just a means to ease clinging to reality as objective and real.

and this teachings were given by the buddha to a select few diciples who could take it at that time.

because to tell somebody that there is no essential thing to be found anywhere is quit shocking for the ego. so he kept it secret, today this is a part of buddhist mahayana teachings.

contemplating that there is no self-nature to be found anywhere is a means to reduce clinging to reality, the ultimate reality as discribed by mahamudra or dzogchen teachings sound quite familiar to the qualities of the "Self" in the sense of vedanta.

these two teachings are also buddhist (but come form the vajrayana or tantric tradition), and very similar to advaita. but a little different because they dont talk about the nature of the mind as something with the slightest trace of selfhood, or personality they dont say this is the nature of god, they just say thats the nature of mind, or buddha-nature.

I hope you can see that it is just a matter of how to describe things and go about things, a different door to dharma.

its not even a matter what is true or not, or what is the better path, there are millions of seekers world wide, as HH DAlai Lama says we need the variety of paths.

its a misstake to think buddha was wrong and krishna was right, or that krishna was right and the buddha was wrong.

thats my position on these things. best would be to watch the nature of mind and stop philosophical debates or trying to figure thigns out... but thats a hard task.

as long as we can take a short look at the "Self" or inherent silence and vastness of mind, then these things dont bother us to much anymore..

May we all attain the fruit in this life and help our fellow sentient beings to attain it too

General topics / Re: a practical advise need from all
« on: August 08, 2011, 05:38:42 PM »
dear ksksat27

Iam from the west, here the family is seen differently, the roles are different of mother father and child. My little time in india showed me that the structures are different then in the west.

I will go back to india to my guru and spend years with him meditating, Iam 24 years old now, my father gives me monthly some money to help me sustain this life, and a wonderful american women who I just recently met, also will give me monthly money to support my spritual practice, this is indeed a blessing, and a great opportunity not just for me but also for the western culture, as I will be immersed in a yogin lifestyle that is almost dying out. I will spent part of my time in a cave you know. How crazy is that???

I dont know how or why I am in this position, many people say I am really fast in the dharma, and that I have excellent karma, also my teacher said I practiced the dharma in previous lives.

thats my situation, the thing is still my father my mother they are worried what is going to happen with me? I dont have any income the next years, I didnt start to go to university jet, and it will be ahrder to do so later. Iam myself a little worried, what can i do with this experience? in the worldly life it means nothing right, I cannot buy me anything with moksha. But its the biggest gift I can give to my culture, and we need this you know. we really do, so I dont do my practice just for my little slef, its for the welfare and awakening of the whole exsitence, they said when the buddha was awakened all 10.000things were awakened too.

we are one, so your practice is for all not just for you. you create merit, when you pray to the gods and gurus, you accumulate merit (very good karmic seeds), that will help you to walk the spiritual path more easily, also the worldly life might become more easy. in short doing sadhana is the higghest good of a human being.

to talk with parents is always the most challenging in all cultures, maybe more so in the east then in the west. what you need to do is be true to yourself. if you learn and study more IT things, this might not prevent the next crash or the loss of your job, there is no guarantee for this
if you loose your job on the other hand and you have a good practice, a good stable peaceful mind, you dont panic and dont suffer so much.
if you spent your time with IT training you and loose your job you might worry alot and then cannot find a new job because you loose hope and trust in yourself.

so your practice is a help also for worldly life.

you should honor your mothers wishes, tell her you hear and understand her, and that she is right in some ways but that you feel it is most important for you to do your sadhana now.
be kind to her but also be firm in youre understanding what is best for you. even if she wont change at first, after some time when she sees you are honest and firm with your decision she will change too and be of service to your wish rather then working against it.

it might take some time, but that is how it was for me also, I just was holding on to myself (and being open and kind to my parents) and after some time my parents started to support me rather then telling me what I should do.

I know you can deal with this situation, and bhagavan is with you as well.
in tantric buddhism we have a saying that all situations are the guru. so if there is hardship it is the invitation to grow as a human being, move closer to moksha.
this situation is in this sense not an obstacle but an opportunity to grow and I know you will do the right thing, might not be what I said you know, but I do hope that some ideas were helpful.

as I said west and east are different int heir family structures, so you have to use your common sense as well, because these are ideas mainly coming from psychotherapy which is a western discipline for personal growth. and it helps dealing with family and relationship issues, but might not be very practical for an indian family you know.

anyway good and I know it will be fine

much love

General topics / Re: no hundred percent faith for me
« on: August 03, 2011, 09:06:22 PM »
dear krishnan

thank you for your honesty. I think subramanians last answer is very fulfilling.

Personally for me its like, there is the ever-present grace of the divine, in the form of bhagavan or any other guru,siddha saint of any tradition. does not matter too much.

in fact we are bathed in grace and love, and in fact we are that. god-guru-self is one, thats what the vedanta is teaching right?

on the other hand as you and all of us experience here is that we are limited beings. we are not jet buddhas or fully realized our potential and love. there is suffering. we can say, "suffering is just an illusion" sure, why not say that. but does it end our suffering?

the goal is to realize that we are actually complete whole and perfect bliss since time without beginning.

right now when we seem to not be that, because we are attached to our bodies, and mind.
we should work with what is right in front of us. we should pacify our suffering, the supreme remedy is to be as you are and don't alter anything of your experience just a BIG YES to all that is there.

for other problems, worldly, mental, spiritual there are many methods, upayas skillfull means, thought by the buddhas, and god realized people.

what helps me to reduce suffering is to breath mindfully, be in touch with my body, relax, and again relax. its very easy but you see first thing is we have to be healthy human beings. functional, happy and at ease, then we can let go of our selfes and rest in what is.

but you have surely your own method that helps you, and you use it very wisely.

so we just continue for the sake of all sentient beings with our practice.


General topics / union of sun and moon tantra
« on: August 03, 2011, 02:31:54 AM »
following is one of the oldest surviving dzogchen tantras, called the union of sun and moon. it points directly to the nature of reality, try to read it slowly and with presence, remember that these kinds of texts, like the advaita vedanta scriptures, have the power to induce the highest form of consciousness in the reader. using conceptual thoughts to guide the yogin to a non conceptual state of mind. enjoy :)

Unborn, yet continuing without interruption,
neither coming nor going, omnipresent,
Supreme Dharma,
unchangeable space, without definition,
spontaneously self-liberating--
perfectly unobstructed state--
manifest from the very beginning,
self-created, without location,
with nothing negative to reject,
and nothing positive to accept,
infinite expanse, penetrating everywhere,
immense, and without limits, without ties,
with nothing even to dissolve
or to be liberated from,
manifest beyond space and time,
existing from the beginning,
immense ying (Wylie: dbyings, inner space,)
radiant through clarity
like the Sun and the Moon,
indestructible like a Vajra,
stable as a mountain,
pure as a lotus,
strong as a lion,
incomparable pleasure beyond all limits,
illumination, equanimity,
peak of the Dharma,
light of the Universe,
perfect from the beginning.

General topics / Re: The Royal Song of Saraha (Dohakosa)
« on: January 25, 2011, 02:53:58 PM »
we should definitely try to meet dear subramanian ji

if I go there I would like to meet the devotees and spent time practicing

much love

look at fotos of ramana he is totally relaxed...dzogchen has also the name of "final relaxation" because in non duality there is no more tension whats so ever. so if meditaiotn is mind gymnastics it is missing the point

I want to add that meditation is not just an antidote to the big questions like "who am I and whnece?" you know it is transforming this body into the perfect enjoyment body....

like tasting honey instead of feeling a knot.

so as long as meditation is just a mental sport, mind cannot be transformed.

thats my humble opinion and regarding advaita or mahamudra or all other non dual approaches to meditation, without proper training in beeing at peace with bodymind it is useless...

a pith instruction in mahamudra is to relaxe into whatever arises....

not focus, not watch, not ignore....relaxe....why?

because if you focus if you are tense then your lung (prana) will be contracted and your body is a knot and not honey...

I came to the comclusion that the bliss the sutras and shastras, upanisahds, the dohas, tantras etc are talking about is a total experience of body and mind not a mental state alone its complete bliss

General topics / Re: The Royal Song of Saraha (Dohakosa)
« on: January 25, 2011, 09:46:05 AM »
dear subramanian ji

Iam in tso pema (lotus lake) in himachal pradesh at the moment, I found my root guru (as they call it in the tibetan tradition) and stay with him to practice under his directions...

he fullfills all my aspirations that I had and it is a blessing of maharshi that I found him.

he is meditating in a simple room, he has nearly no followers (I met three so far) and he is still practicing alltough he is fully realized throughout all three states (waking dreaming deep sleep) he makes no show whatsoever, he is not traveling (sometimes giving teachings in the west) but always stays in his mountain hermitage..and looking directly at the nature of mind.

he said that the beeings who stay in caves and practice meditation are far greater then those teachers that travel around to teach beeings, even if you dont see it right away, but they benefit and influence the whole of humanity (so he is teaching similar to ramana, behaving similar to him and I feel he has the same realization, but off course not such a great beacon like bhagawan...but the light is the same)

I feel his guidence even when I sleep.....I practice 7 h a day six days a week, now I took a day off to went down to town and check emails buy some supplies and meet friends.

Iam deeply content and happy with what is. meditation under the guidence of a saint is all that men needs to feel bliss and peace....everything else is deluded activity.

my exgirlfriend could visit arunachala and I begged her to bring me something from there, so she brought me a stone from arunachala wich I always carry with me. I will come back next year and maybe visist to practice there for some 1,2 weeks I will inform you, so that we can meet in real life and talk about whatever we like to talk about :)

I feel I found my second home in india subramanian ji, in many ways there need work to be done here in many other ways india is the mother of religion and spirituality and all indians should be extremely gratefull to be born here. (ofcourse the beggars wont be to gratefull..anyway you know what I mean)

much love

General topics / The Royal Song of Saraha (Dohakosa)
« on: January 14, 2011, 03:31:06 PM »
maybe the greatest doha ever written by a tantric buddhist master, hope you enjoy :)

Homage to the destroyer of demonic power!

The wind lashes calm waters into rollers and breakers;
The king makes multifarious forms out of unity,
Seeing many faces of this one Archer, Saraha.

The cross-eyed fool sees one lamp as two;
The vision and the viewer are one,
You broken, brittle mind!

Many lamps are lit in the house,
But the blind are still in darkness;
Sahaja is all-pervasive
But the fool cannot see what is under his nose.

Just as many rivers are one in the ocean
All half-truths are swallowed by the one truth;
The effulgence of the sun illuminates all dark corners.

Clouds draw water from the ocean to fall as rain on the earth
And there is neither increase nor decrease;
Just so, reality remains unaltered like the pure sky.

Replete with the Buddha's perfections
Sahaja is the one essential nature;
Beings are born into it and pass into it,
Yet there is neither existence nor non-existence in it.

Forsaking bliss the fool roams abroad,
Hoping for mundane pleasure;
Your mouth is full of honey now,
Swallow it while you may!

Fools attempt to avoid their suffering,
The wise enact their pain.
Drink the cup of sky-nectar
While others hunger for outward appearances.

Flies eat filth, spurning the fragrance of sandalwood;
Man lost to nirvana furthers his own confusion,
Thirsting for the coarse and vulgar.

The rain water filling an ox's hoof-print
Evaporates when the sun shines;
The imperfections of a perfect mind,
All are dissolved in perfection.

Salt sea water absorbed by clouds turns sweet;
The venom of passionate reaction
In a strong and selfless mind becomes elixir.

The unutterable is free of pain;
Non-meditation gives true pleasure.
Though we fear the dragon's roar
Rain falls from the clouds to ripen the harvest.

The nature of beginning and end is here and now,
And the first does not exist without the last;
The rational fool conceptualising the inconceivable
Separates emptiness from compassion.

The bee knows from birth
That flowers are the source of honey;
How can the fool know
That samsara and nirvana are one?

Facing himself in a mirror
The fool sees an alien form;
The mind with truth forgotten
Serves untruth's outward sham.

Flowers' fragrance is intangible
Yet its reality pervades the air,
Just as mandala circles are informed
By a formless presence.

Still water stung by an icy wind
Freezes hard in starched and jagged shapes;
In an emotional mind agitated by critical concepts
The unformed becomes hard and intractable.

Mind immaculate by nature is untouched
By samsara and nirvana's mud;
But just like a jewel lost in a swamp
Though it retains its lustre it does not shine.

As mental sloth increases pure awareness diminishes;
As mental sloth increases suffering also grows.
Shoots sprout from the seed and leaves from the branches.

Separating unity from multiplicity in the mind
The light grows dim and we wander in the lower realms;
Who is more deserving of pity than he
Who walks into fire with his eyes wide open?

Obsessed with the joys of sexual embrace
The fool believes he knows ultimate truth;
He is like someone who stands at his door
And, flirting, talks about sex.

The wind stirs in the House of Emptiness
Exciting delusions of emotional pleasure;
Fallen from celestial space, stung,
The tormented yogin faints away.

Like a brahmin taking rice and butter
Offering sacrifice to the flame,
He who visualises material things as celestial ambrosia
Deludes himself that a dream is ultimate reality.

Enlightening the House of Brahma in the fontanelle
Stroking the uvala in wanton delight,
Confused, believing binding pleasure to be spiritual release,
The vain fools calls himself a yogin.

Teaching that virtue is irrelevant to intrinsic awareness,
He mistakes the lock for the key;
Ignorant of the true nature of the gem
The fool calls green glass emerald.

His mind takes brass for gold,
Momentary peak experience for reality accomplished;
Clinging to the joy of ephemeral dreams
He calls his short-thrift life Eternal Bliss.

With a discursive understanding of the symbol EVAM,
Creating four seals through an analysis of the moment,
He labels his peak experience sahaja:
He is clinging to a reflection mistaken for the mirror.

Like befuddled deer leaping into a mirage of water
Deluded fools in their ignorance cling to outer forms
And with their thirst unslaked, bound and confined,
They idealise their prison, pretending happiness.

The relatively real is free of intellectual constructs,
And ultimately real mind, active or quiescent, is no-mind,
And this is the supreme,the highest of the high, immaculate;
Friends, know this sacred high!

In mind absorbed in samadhi that is concept-free,
Passion is immaculately pure;
Like a lotus rooted in the slime of a lake bottom,
This sublime reality is untouched by the pollution of existence.

Make solid your vision of all things as visionary dream
And you attain transcendence,
Instantaneous realisation and equanimity;
A strong mind binding the demons of darkness
Beyond thought your own spontaneous nature is accomplished.

Appearances have never ceased to be their original radiance,
And unformed, form never had a substantial nature to be grasped;
It is a continuum of unique meditation,
In an inactive, stainless, meditative mind that is no-mind.

Thus the I is intellect, mind and mind-forms,
I the world, all seemingly alien show,
I the infinite variety of vision-viewer,
I the desire, the anger, the mental sloth -
And bodhicitta.

Now there is a lamp lit in spiritual darkness
Healing the splits riven by the intellect
So that all mental defilements are erased.
Who can define the nature of detachment?

It cannot be denied nor yet affirmed,
And ungraspable it is inconceivable.
Through conceptualisation fools are bound,
While concept-free there is immaculate sahaja.

The concepts of unity and multiplicity do not bring integration;
Only through awareness do sentient beings reach freedom.
Cognition of radiance is strong meditation;
Abide in a calm, quiescent mind.

Reaching the joy swollen land
Powers of seeing expand,
And there is joy and laughter;
Even chasing objects there is no separation.

From joy, buds of pure pleasure emerge,
Bursting into blooms of supreme pleasure,
And so long as outflow is contained
Unutterable bliss will surely mature.

What, where and by whom are nothing,
Yet the entire event is imperative.
Whether love and attachment or desirelessness
The form of the event is emptiness.

Like pigs we wallow in this sensual mire
But what can stain our pearly mind?
Nothing can ever contaminate it,
And by nothing can we ever be bound.

General topics / Re: varanasi
« on: October 15, 2010, 06:46:56 PM »
Iam in delhi for two days now, even if I heard so many bad things about this city I love it very much...

its dirty and the air is very bad, but its also very wonderful here, I feel totally at home, a old man even started to talk with me in hindi when I visited a temple, his loving smile vanished when he realized that Iam a foreigner...

dear silentgreen
thats ok,I think it will be enough to see kasi, if delhi feels so good, then I suppose that this city is even more vibrant

I will do this at the end of my journey, so that I feel comfortable to be alone in such a city...

thank you all for the information.


General topics / Happiness in the Bodhicaryavantara
« on: October 10, 2010, 12:50:22 PM »
Whatever joy there is in this world
All comes from desiring others to be happy,
And whatever suffering there is in this world
All comes from desiring myself to be happy.


General topics / Re: varanasi
« on: October 08, 2010, 06:14:11 PM »
thank you dear silentgreen

you know of a saint or scholar that I could visit in varanasi?

much love

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