Ravi, Jewell and others,
I am sure the quotes/videos of Krishnamurti, Nisargadatta, etc are useful. But rather ironically after more than half a century of so called religious pursuit I only find one saying of Krishnamurti to be relevant these days. Which just shows my inability to even start self enquiry.
"I have followed all these old paths of discipleship, of worship, and I see that they are much too long, too complicated, unnecessary -because whatever path you may follow, whatever god you may worship, whatever shrine you may build, you are forced at last to come back to yourself and solve that self."
Dear Sri Sadhak,
I think i understand what You mean. Few days ago i was in similar dilemma. We read so much about this subject,about Reality and all the paths that lead to it,and with time we overload ourselves with so much information,so much contradictory things and teachings,etc,etc. Pondering over that i realized i put God,the Self,the Supreme,what ever name we give it it does not matter,in just a few words. Something so rich and wonderful i put in a few concepts,and i wonder where i made mistake. And in my case,that was it. Reading all this i simplified God so much,that He lost all beauty. Simplified in the wrong way. Now i understand all the Masters when they say it cannot be explained. It simply cannot. However beautiful word we use is it not enough. The mind puts it in some frame,in some concept,and in reality that does not mean a thing. Those are just words,just mind which is not able to capture something which is beyond it,and beyond its knowledge. So,however we know,it is useless in the end. And ultimatievly,it is all lie.
How can something so wonderful and great,something which holds in Itself million of galaxies,so much life,and even the wonder of birth itself,to be named or made into some concepts. How can the mind ever understand such greatness! God,the Self, must be,and it IS something much much much much more Greater!
Many times i came to the point i cannot do anything anymore. I become irritated and tired,and every time that proves to be just the faze which than brings me even greater blessings when it pass. I think we all are going through such periods,and they are many times the good sign. There is also a time for rest,apparent rest.
And when that is not the case,i know i am wrong somewhere. There is one saying of Rumi which stayed with me till now,and that is 'When we are not feeling energetic and in awe,when we feel dull.we missunderstud some teaching'. That is my guidance these days.
So,for me,there must be a place in our hearts for Miraculous,for the Wonder and Awe,for the Unknown. Always!
And just to add,i also see this forum as Satsang,and i am sure nothing goes to waste here.
With love,