

While trying to turn your attention 180 degrees towards self, whenever
you feel your self-attention is becoming slack, do not try to keep
up the pressure. It is better to allow your attention to return to 0'
for a while, and then to make a fresh attempt. If you wish to punch
something, it is best to draw your fist right back, because then
your punch will have maximum impact. Likewise, if you start your
attempt to turn your attention selfwards from 0?, your effort will
have maximum force.
By incessantly repeating such fresh attempts, you will gradually be
able to turn your attention further and further towards self: 40?,60?,
75?,and more. In between each fresh attempt, you can usefully spend
the time you are resting at 0? (that is, attending to second and third
persons) by doing manana (thinking about Bhagavan's teachings) or
sravana (reading his teachings). At all times between such attempts
you should also take care to be indifferent to whatever experiences
may come, because you can then build a strong foundation of
vairagya (freedom from desire to attend to anything other than 'I')
and bhakti (love to attend only to 'I', from which you will sooner or
later be able to make your final leap, turning the full 180? towards self.
Sadhu Om